Smudged

Please excuse me if my social skills are lacking--
My heart is swollen and sunken in my chest.
It's a boulder I've been pushing for my lost love.
I swear I always try my best.

Let's not let first impressions dictate eternity
'Cause I can't judge you, and I don't like to be judged.
The world is not a courtroom,
I can't afford a lawyer,
And my view of life tends to be smudged.

If I asked you just to stay awhile,
I wonder if you would understand.
I don't speak too well with words--
Words are like groping my way through the dark with bare hands.
But if I asked you just to stay awhile,
What I mean is that I love what I know of who you are.
Decode the message I am trying to send by listening with your heart.

Please forgive me if I seem to be distracted,
But your smile flashed lightening, lighting up the new moon night sky,
Where darkness had prevailed, and I've hailed it with my own remorse
Until you struck me dumb and blinded my weary eyes.

Let's not let this moment distort the truth,
'Cause I never know whether to believe what I see.
My vision has failed me so many times before,
Condemning me to push this boulder for eternity.

But if I asked you just to stay awhile, I wonder if you would understand.
I know I don't speak too well with words--
Words are my worst enemy, holding me captive in my own land.
But if I asked you just to stay awhile,
What I mean is that I love what I know so far of who you are.
Decode the message I am trying to send by listening with your heart.
Listen to me with your heart.